On An Update On My Life (February 2025)

Hi everyone, it’s me. Life has been going well for me. I’ve been taking my medication religiously. I’m 229 days sober. I’m going back to school and enjoying it. Things have been slowly rebuilding in my life. Also, I just turned 28 this month. I really enjoyed the party (Thanks mom and dad for setting it up). All my friends were there. More friends and family showed up than last year.

I hope that I will continue to make more friends. I’ve been spending a lot of time talking with Dario and watching anime together. He’s been through all my ups and downs and yet remains loyal to me even when he has seen me at my worst. He’s good company. I pester him daily to get on Discord and he usually can answer, and we just shoot the shit about life. Good guy.

It's hard to find the motivation to do things when your ability to derive pleasure from things is severely hampered by anhedonia. I still to this day struggle to find fulfillment in doing things alone, because I am only beginning to learn how to trust myself and my brain again after all the traumatic experiences I’ve been through. I’m still not over what happened to two of my dearest friends in 2017. They were only in their early twenties when they passed. Life was downhill for years until I decided to get back on my own two feet.

I’m recovering and easing into reality once again. I don’t have an objective viewpoint on my journey, since it has been experienced by me and me alone. I’ve heard from my dad and brother that I’m doing well, though. And I think I’ve been doing well too, since all the relationships I’ve been working on have been flourishing. My prospects on my own life have broadened significantly.

I recently renewed my website for another year, so you should expect to see more posts. And thank you to anyone who has been reading. I’m doing this for myself, I enjoy it, and it intrinsically has value to me. Even if my audience isn’t that broad just yet, I like doing it and it’s something I can work on.

Thank you!
J.C.